Everything is a witness statement
Let me share some memories with you. I remember lying in my crib as a baby, and two heads appearing above me. They were radiating exuberance. A hand reached for the mechanical toy above my […]
Personal development
The loss of redemption and the judgement of worth
We were watching the documentary Uncle Tom. I don’t remember exactly what the timestamp was, but at one point I said “hold on”. We paused the documentary, something we do a lot to discuss the […]
Podcast 2 – Finding common ground between a doubting Atheist and a Christian
One of the most striking things I’ve ever read is that good mental health is associated with some form of spirituality. I realize that, over time, I lost (or renounced) any faith or spirituality. I […]
Don’t fear the deep dive
The subconscious. It’s not something I think we, “modern” man, really know much about. Sure, there are books. But in our social life and in our institutions? Think about it. How would you describe the […]
What’s your REAL story?
Today, we watched a documentary made by a well known YouTuber. This documentary didn’t deliver what it promised. The title was enticing, but in the end it displayed a lack of something I’ve felt very […]
It’s not all bad: On childhood memories, dairy intolerance and B12 supplementation
Today, after meeting up with my sister in all but blood, there’s a few things to write down. First of all, I’m not better, but I’m gradually feeling less shitty. Especially the past few mornings […]
Shame and self-talk
You don’t want to know the sheer number of bookmarks on my phone and laptop related to psychology, PTSD, Complex PTSD, high sensitivity, overexcitability, boundaries, attachment problems, communicating effectively, anger, shame etcetera etcetera. The list […]
On intrinsic motivation and other concepts of importance
This is a reckoning with all the things I recognized about myself 10 years ago, but was unable to express. There were a lot of concepts that I was aware of. One of them is […]
On living an authentic life
I’m not doing it. There. I said it. I’m not living an authentic life. I’m so worried about what other people think of me, all the fucking time, that I make choices that I don’t […]