I’ll be back when I’ve made it

I can't face you in the state that you are in
I can't be kind to you in the state that I am in
I just wanted to let you know
I don't know where I will end up
But I know where I have to go
I'll be back when I've made it 
I'll be back when I've made it 
Pray that I'll make it before I die 
I wish I could be kinder 
I wish I could be wiser 
I wish I could be who I need myself to be  
But I will surely never be  
Who you think I ought to be
Let me go 
Let me go  
I need to fly with these broken wings 
I can't fly if you hang on to me  
These wings used to carry many but now they can carry only one
Let me go
Let me go
I will not bring you to your paradise 
I'm off to find my own
I might not be back, even when I've made it  
I might visit for only a short while, at most  
But first I have to find the lost places of my heart  
I'm letting myself go
From duty
And disappointment
And anger
And pain  
I'm letting go 
You'd best do the same
Because what you're hanging on to isn't me
It's and old ghost's shadow
I'm leaving that haunted house
There is nothing for me to return to 
There is nothing for me there   
Where I'll end up I don't know 
But I know I have to go